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I feel nothing.The numbness is almost comforting
The feeling of absolutely nothing
No sadness, no anger
Just dead silence
I couldn't care less for his reply
I couldn't care less if he's gone for good
No nervousness, no fear
Just emptiness
My life just goes on, the days drag by
My cuts don't get worse, nor do they improve
No worries, not anxious
I feel nothing.

Dreamer of DreamsEyes so green – deeper than the seas and with
Thoughts so far away; she was the dreamer of all dreams.
They told her she couldn’t succeed
Yet she tried and tried.
And eventually fell victim
To the abuse and lies.

Her smile held beauty that none could compare, but her
Confidence was shaken and she was struck with despair.
For the words that they had spoken
Got lost inside her head.
To the world she was alive,
But in her heart she was dead.

She found solace in a friend whose name we all know:
Crack cocaine became her lover and it became her foe.
Now she felt she had done
What they said she would do.
“Not only am I a failu

CharcoalI light up all the words you say.
I turn them into birds of prey.
No backing down.
It's the judgement day.
Happy birthday! Aren't we a fact!?

The silence is now louder,
And we are samer than the others.
Though the fire now burns quieter,
We're nothing but fighting brothers.

So I light up all the words you say.
I turn them into birds of prey.
No backing down.
It's the judgement day.
Happy birthday! Aren't we a fact!?

Aren't we lovers? Aren't we a fact?
Let's find a new fate.

Somewhere

people

don't

know

our

The Pixelated Mani am just a single pixel,
a tiny dot on the digital canvas of my life,
a speck of grey in a sea of color,
a whirlpool of life and frivolity,
yet the sea is far away,
i am but a single pixel on a blank canvas,
a single pixel can never see a bigger picture,
yet somehow i am okay this way,
a single solitary pixel,
and yet all the same i cling to hope,
i hope that one day i will be joined by other pixels,
so that we may form a beautiful picture,
a special little masterpiece

lostI see them slip one by one, all my dreams

Try so hard to catch them, but they dance away it seems.

I don’t want my friends to be my only source of hope

I don’t want to hurt myself anymore just to cope.

This life hasn’t turned out the way I wanted it to be

I’m scared of a future I’m not sure I want to see.

Everyday I feel more confused, feel even more lost

I want to die but I’m not sure if its worth the cost~

Have you seen that girlHave you seen that girl
With the yellow clothing
Running around, making too much noise?

I’m afraid I haven’t
I’ve seen the girl in blue though
She was calm, yet seemed troubled

What’re you talking about
I’ve only seen the girl in black
Packed with danger, yet kept to herself

Ah, were you guys just talking about me?

They all turned
To find the girl
The color they each want to see
For she is nothing
But
A mirror
That shows what you want to see
But never
Revealing the hidden part inside

Dear momThirteen years are far too long.
I think of your favorite song
and I sit here this day,
thinking what would be the best to say.

I miss you, more then most know.
I remember the way your eyes used to glow.
Waking up each morning, to the smell of coffee and smoke,
there you sat, in your morning cloak.

One day I will paint, I'll paint you in blue.
For you are my sky, that will always be true.
I think of the days filled with happiness and smiles,
the way you made us feel, could be seen for miles.

The little things I wish I remembered,
the way you laughed, what you would have worn in December.
How it felt to fall a sleep next to you,
but one day

wading in deeperI've never told you
about this fear
and it is proof of cowardice
how I dare speak of it
when you're not here
I've never put it into words
before, but maybe you've seen it
in the way I look at you
or silently plead for your hand
to hold
it says
please
don't leave me
alone
because you are
the most precious soul
and without you here
I forget how to breathe
and drown

Consider It a DiseaseIs like a bomb that's about to hit
A errie thought that takes over
When life get hard
We give up
Therefore it seems like death is the only answer
You wish your friends and family can stop you
But only you can stop yourself
Don't let negatively become a disease
You're stronger then that
Life will get better down the road
Is the truth but only so few can believe in so

Be happy, my baby girl.I don’t know when you’ll be reading this, my sweetheart
But what daddy is about to tell you will help you understand him a little

Your father is a complex, but loving and caring man
He always tried to help his friends and loved ones whenever he could, even if it was at the cost of himself
But that isn’t the best thing one can do
It got him hurt a lot by people he would have never thought to be hurt by
Luckily daddy has gone through it all, just so he could teach you to be different
Listen to me baby girl, it took daddy not long to figure out what life is
What life is ment to be, and what its true purpose is

He was depresse

Your Skin to that BladeYour Skin to that Blade

You take your skin to that blade
That thin piece of sharp metal
To go beneath your skin.

That moment when you feel that rush
The rush of a red river
flowing down your wrist
The release of your demons.

Weather it's across the stream
or down the street
That first slice becomes an addiction
Addiction of ecstasy when you
bring your skin to that blade.

The next day people are asking you
"Why are you wearing a long sleeve shirt in this weather"
with your reply of "I'm just cold."
When you fill your wrists with bracelets
or the “my cat scratched me” excuse.

You will say anything believable just so
yo

Stone Heartkneeling on rough ground,
the tears fall from my face,
collecting in a chalice beneath your feet,
feel the melodic rhythm of my heart in every drop,
and sate your thirsty lips upon the cool water,
drink your fill from the wellspring of my love,
but do not be surprised once the well runs dry,
and my heart becomes like stone,
and beats no more

Still searching for youthe skyline has been torn open again
as it released the cold cold rain
water rises into a river so deep
drowning me just leave me to sleep

i slowly start to open my eyelids
and look to where the light once hid
the darkness now surrounds the sky
as these rivers now run dry

I take a walk on the streets without names
as my blood freezes within my veins
my lips start to slowly turn blue
im at the end but im still searching for you

so i walk through the valley of death
as i savoir my very last breath
my lungs feel so full but there so empty
ill die to see the beauty i used to see

The Porcelain Shieldof porcelain so bloody,
chipped and battered,
rusted firm from eons past,
the blood streaks like tears down its eyes,
like magic in the mirror,
reveals the crystal tears it cries,
my mask it is so beaten,
from years of bitter lies,
it used to be so perfect,
but now it slowly dies,
the cracks they show so clearly,
displayed so all can see,
revealing beneath the surface,
a broken, lonely me

Because You Loved MeHi,
My name is--
Nothing.
Never mind.
I forgot that I don't have one.
You can't know me.
You don't know me....
At least that's what you told them....
You could never just admit it.
You would never tell them.
You should have just shouted it out,
Loud enough for the whole world to here you.
I love you...
And you know you loved me...
Cause we were together
Yeah.
We were a thing
I couldn't have just imagined it
We spent 4 months together
Cuddled in the back of your mom's car
Laughing at my jokes
Arms around each other
Lips locked together.....
But now you say that you don't know me??
Every.
Single.
One.
Of my deepest secrets has been invested into your very soul
And every time you look at me...
You turn the other way and laugh
Because you know I'm a freak.
You know what's wrong with me!
You know everything!
But you still say that you don't know me...
But you know you do.
You know you loved me!
And I know that I loved you....
And I know that you know you loved me too
S

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CareShe sat in her room all alone
With a heart as hard as stone
She started screaming but no one came
To all of them she was just their shame
No one ever listened to a word she said
Not even when she told them by morning she'd be dead
To all of them it was just a game
She was the girl they gave all the blame
All the blame for things gone wrong
It's been this way for to long
Now that girl just wants to be free
She just wants everyone to see
That she wasn't as bad as they made her seem

Now she sits here with a broken heart
As the cutting begins to start
Blood drips down from her arms and face
Shes finally getting free of this place

I rememberI remember you as that little girl
With blond and brown curls
And bright green eyes
That shined brighter than the skies
You used to be
So happy and free
But now look at you

I remember when you were eight
And that night when you decided to wait
Wait for daddy to come home
but he never did and you were alone
He said he'd be back by ten
But daddy lied again
That was the first time pain took your heart
Thats when it all began to start

I remember when you grew
there where secrets no one knew
And mommy didn't care
If you cut your body or hair
And no one could see
That you weren't happy
At that time you were only thirteen
And

EmoI have long brown and blonde hair
And black is what I like to wear
Black eyeliner covers my eyes
Sometimes people are what I despise
People call me sleazy
And sometimes easy
They also call me emo and weird
Ever since I randomly appeared
At their tiny little school
They all like to judge me
But they're are people that know
The way things really go
They're the ones I call friends
They know the real me
The me no one else sees
The me that loves to laugh and smile
And be with them for awhile
The me that can play guitar and sing
Because it's just my thing
They know that under all this black
Is a girl who lo

Friends and Nothing Morei promised i would leave you alone
But how long can that go on
For almost a year we were together
You promised that things would never
Be how they are now
So my question is how
How can things be this bad
How can i still feel sad
I know we both said some awful words
But the words i said were lies i hope you heard
I hope that you heard through the lies
To see that i don't want to say goodbye
I don't hate you
I love you
And i always will
I only broke one promise to you
Because i lied to you
i wish we were friends
Thats all i want and nothing more
A chance to walk through a new door
Where were friends and nothing more

RestartThere are so many things i want to say
But you wont give me the time of day
You never want to speak to me
And my face you never want to see
I want to be friends with you
But that's the last thing you want to do
For over a year we've talked
And we've laughed
But now things have changed
Our lives have rearranged
All because you broke my heart
Now you want to restart
You want to forget i exist
Forget we ever kissed
You want to forget all our memories
Forget all the difficulties

Im not going to stand in your way
I'll move far away
So you can forget
The first moment that we met
So you can forget
The girl with blond hair
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by ~BrokenButterfly033, Jun 2, 2011, 4:51:11 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Urban & Spoken Word

Im sorry!
Im sorry!
i didn't mean it!
Please don't use that fist to hit!
Im just a girl!
Please im begging you!
Don't do what your about to!
Im sorry daddy!
Please! NO!

These are the last words
That i ever heard
Escape my sisters lips
Before that monster punched and ripped
He took his fist and smashed it hard
Her screams he would disregard
And my pleads he ignored
Then He grabbed a metal cord
wrapped it twice around her face
He squeezed and blood escaped from Grace
I cried and hit his back
It earned me a nice hard smack
when he was finally done
I left the house and started to run
And for the first time i asked for help

He was arrested that night
The cop told me everything would be alright
I shook my head and told him he lied
My little sister has dyed
Things will never be okay
Because of him my days will always be gray

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Child abuse is wrong. Help if you can, if you cant find someone who can.

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~ScarletAnneBlack Jun 2, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

How does this only have 9 views in 2 hours? It's amazing! The best poem I've read in a long time. The emotion behind the words is clear and painful. I cried...

~BrokenButterfly033 Jun 2, 2011

thank you

~ScarletAnneBlack Jun 3, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

You're very welcome.

~TeaDrinker08 Jun 2, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

I really wish people like that would stop. If only people would see, domestic abuse is horrible and shouldn't even exist in this world, any world.

~BrokenButterfly033 Jun 2, 2011

ya.

~TeaDrinker08 Jun 2, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

I'm sorry if you've ever had to go through something like that. But your poetry is very deep and wonderful, and it shows the raw truth of things that people really do choose to ignore.

~BrokenButterfly033 Jun 2, 2011

I didnt, but i want to make a different and make people realize that this happens and these children need help

~TeaDrinker08 Jun 2, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

Good, it's good to know that people still care and want to help. I've known people who went through things like this and many of them, eventually didn't see the point of living life after what happened to them.

~BrokenButterfly033 Jun 2, 2011

thats sad

~TeaDrinker08 Jun 2, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

Yes it is, but thankfully I and others were able to help them see why life is worth living.

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